This morning I made the call. I called the number that perhaps will get me moving in the right direction. I posted, last year I believe, on how I wanted to go for counselling for my ppd but I just couldnt' make myself do it. This morning I woke up and thought if I don't do it now I never will. I'm so tired of leaving work every night and not wanting to come home, not wanting to deal with Samantha or life. Sad isn't it. I think to myself why do I feel this way? I'm not crazy, but I just can't handle things anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter but each day seems like a struggle. I see other women in life that have kids and enjoy being a mom. I would love to feel like that. Does that make me a bad person??, for not enjoying life with Samantha. Is it fair to her? Thankfully she can't see or understand how I feel. Anyway the words aren't coming out the way I'd like, so I'm just waiting for the return phone call to get things moving.
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6 comments:
Oh hon. I'm so glad you made the call. Once you get started I bet you'll wonder why you didn't do it sooner.
If you ever want to talk....
Good for you for making the call. I also want to say thank you to you for being honest and true.
Also, don't kid yourself....many women love their children just like you love Samantha, and find it really really difficult. Don't turn this inward.
I agree with the other ladies. This age is such a trying time for the kids. I know I haven't read your (or any) blog in such a long time, but catching up with you I can see we both have a lot of similar problems. Eleana isn't diabetic, but she is extremely picky. She eats nothing but fruit and grains, no meat, no pasta, and she cries real tears when something "yucky" is on her plate. Sometimes it gets to the point where "wit's end" doesn't quite describe how we feel.
If you do need to talk, I'm here too! ;)
Someone said to me recently "You don't know what's going on behind closed doors." You're not alone. Good for you for getting help.
Very smart move--I hope they can help. Wish you all the best. Please share with us too--we're listening.
Julie
Good for you for making the call - please keep us posted on how you're doing...
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