Wowee, what have I done?

I'd say for about a little more than 6 months I've been itching to move. Well it looks like we are moving. Our offer was accepted. Unbelievable to us considering what the agent told us. Today I got cold feet about the whole thing. It was really over the most trivial thing too. For the past 3 1/2 years Joe & his dad have been working on finishing the basement, yes that long, having a child will slowww things down, so anyway this morning I remembered the fireplace that we put down there and how we had chosen this sleek black marble tile that went from floor to ceiling and how we had placed a small black shelf across the face of it and how now I would not get to enjoy it. God how materialistic am I? But it was this fireplace that got me thinking how maybe it's not a good idea. How we did so much work on making this house a home and now I'm giving it to strangers. How I'll miss Samantha's room so much, the room that she spent her baby years in. The house we're moving too is slightly smaller (which is a bonus), the lot is smaller too, but the price is a little bit higher than what we can sell this one for. But, it is much closer to my work, the backyard backs onto a park, and Samantha's future school is a 10 minute walk. One of Joe's friend's live on one street over from the house too. I guess I'm just missing all the memories. I know we'll create new ones but I feel sad at leaving this house here. Our first home together. I never thought I'd have such strong feelings now about moving. I'm hoping I don't regret this down the road. My head tells me it's a good move. My mom already gave me her mouthful of negativity. I know she means well but it makes me believe my doubts even more. I just have to remember that she's mostly negative about everything and is a very hard woman to please. So I guess I'll be taking that leap of faith come this May when we put the house up for sale. Oh my god.

On one more note, I did call Mt. Sinai for their group therapy sessions, as I was told by my assessment counsellor, but was politely told that they do not offer group. I also checked out the other program she told me about at Women's College but on the website they specifically say I need a referral from my doctor. Which makes me wonder if the counsellor knew this why did she not tell me so. UGGGGHHH... I will still call them on Monday and see what they tell me. I did find another program on their site, called Brief Psychotherapy for Women, which by what I read sounds like you do not need a referral but only to call them and they will place you on a waiting list. I know all I need is to call my family doctor but it just irks me that I have to take all these steps to get to where I'd like to go. I should've gotten my PHD in psychiatry I could've saved myself the cash and analyzed myself ;-)